A Belated Valentine
A Belated Valentine’s Day
I complimented my sister-in-law today about the Hummingbird Valentine’s Day posts, which I thought were wonderful. She had felt uncomfortable asking me for a contribution; in the wake of Jeff’s (my husband and her brother) death.
But I decided that I would like to make a Valentine’s Day post anyway, even though it is quite a bit late. Because love doesn’t end when someone dies.
Now that the shadowy, heavy shroud of grief has lifted, I can see things a little clearer. There is still the occasional moment when my mind tricks me into believing that Jeff is in the next room. That I could confide in him all that I have been through and he would tell me how strong I am, how much he believes in me, and he would end it with “it will be alright.” He had a deep, soft, comforting voice. Whenever I had a problem, all I had to do was call him and hear him say “it will be alright” and it would be. I remember being in the room when he had his last conversation with his daughter in LA and he ended it with his quiet, comforting “it will be alright.” It wasn’t.
But now that I can see with a clearer eye, I can see that Jeff was the most generous gift that I ever received. He gave my daughter, my new family, my life, and strength. And I was able to have that gift for almost 27 years! How fortunate I have been!
So, Jeff, I want to wish you a belated Happy Valentine’s Day, you would surprise me with the most wonderful gifts…but the greatest gift of all was you.